I can honestly say that I have never faced as big of a mountain as the one in front of me now. Well, the one in front of my family and I, now. And its very appropriate that PM is sharing about good/bad soil and faith like a mustard seed these 2 weeks because I tell you what, I am currently walking up to a mountain that I, literally, cannot climb or go around without the Holy Spirit COMPLETELY decimating that mountain.
I believe that I passed through a pivotal point in my life a few weeks ago, no exaggeration. As a full time church staff member I have faced many obstacles that have been painful but necessary to overcome to mature and grow in my faith and ability to help lead the church. Lately its at a whole other level. Like, honestly, a level that has forced me to look in the mirror and say to myself "are you a man or another wannabe" "Are you going to do whatever it takes to succeed (even if that means facing failure) or just quit" And Ive committed to give it everything Ive got.
Ash and I are committing to pray and seek God for the wisdom and strength to protect our marriage and sanity as I go full out to reach people, to further Journey Church, to build relationships, to submit myself to the ongoing process of study and learning, and to seek God like never before in places Ive never been. My mountain is fear of failure or rejection, its walking in iron-fisted discipline, it's walking on water to Jesus except for that walking on water might be easier than committing to change because I will know in 10 seconds if I fail or succeed as opposed to the painful process of spiritual surgery and breaking of habits. To commit to this without surety of the result is horrifying, but I declare in Jesus name that God is good, He has called, anointed, and appointed me, and through mercy and grace I will see this mountain moved in my life by the sovereign and glorious power of Jesus Christ, not by a SINGLE thing that I can do.
Anyways, sorry for the vagueness. Now you have a reason to stay tuned in to my blog so as to see if I reveal specefics. woo...hoo.....
Be encouraged, because if you dont have to stop and ask your guide for help than youre mountain aint worth climbing.
I believe that I passed through a pivotal point in my life a few weeks ago, no exaggeration. As a full time church staff member I have faced many obstacles that have been painful but necessary to overcome to mature and grow in my faith and ability to help lead the church. Lately its at a whole other level. Like, honestly, a level that has forced me to look in the mirror and say to myself "are you a man or another wannabe" "Are you going to do whatever it takes to succeed (even if that means facing failure) or just quit" And Ive committed to give it everything Ive got.
Ash and I are committing to pray and seek God for the wisdom and strength to protect our marriage and sanity as I go full out to reach people, to further Journey Church, to build relationships, to submit myself to the ongoing process of study and learning, and to seek God like never before in places Ive never been. My mountain is fear of failure or rejection, its walking in iron-fisted discipline, it's walking on water to Jesus except for that walking on water might be easier than committing to change because I will know in 10 seconds if I fail or succeed as opposed to the painful process of spiritual surgery and breaking of habits. To commit to this without surety of the result is horrifying, but I declare in Jesus name that God is good, He has called, anointed, and appointed me, and through mercy and grace I will see this mountain moved in my life by the sovereign and glorious power of Jesus Christ, not by a SINGLE thing that I can do.
Anyways, sorry for the vagueness. Now you have a reason to stay tuned in to my blog so as to see if I reveal specefics. woo...hoo.....
Be encouraged, because if you dont have to stop and ask your guide for help than youre mountain aint worth climbing.
